As most of you know Bronson was finally hired here in Atlanta. He is an Accountant II Supervisor for UPS Capital and loves it. They are a great company to work for and Bronson is so excited. We have found a house we would like to buy but it will not be ready until the end of September. That will mean that we will have lived with my mom and step dad for over a year and that we have not had our own place for 15 months.
We are very grateful to be allowed to stay here to save up money for a down payment and to pay off some of the debt we acquired while being unemployed but we can not wait for our own place again!
With that said and everything going great with the job we will talk a little about the infertility. Bronson and I decided that we needed to move on to a new procedure to try and get pregnant. We agreed that we would try IUI aka artificial insemination. It was a pretty expensive process due to the fact that our insurance does not cover ANY thing to do with infertility but it was still cheaper than IVF and IUI was the next step onto the infertility ladder. We went through all the test and treatments we needed that went a little like this.
- Day 1-3 of your cycle you go in for an ultrasound and blood work. The ultrasound was to make sure that your ovaries did not have any cyst on them as well as to check your ovarian reserve.
- Day 3-7 take fertility drugs to induce ovulation.
- Day 11-13 go back in for more blood work and another ultrasound to check how many eggs had matured.
- Day 14 get a HCG injection
- Day 15 go in for IUI
- 7 days later go in for blood work to make sure you ovulated
- 12 days later go in for blood work to check for pregnancy
These past few months I felt like we were constantly at the doctor. We did our first IUI and everything looked great. From ultrasound to blood work everything was PERFECT! Bronson and I started planning dates, when to tell family, looking at different nursery options and so much more. We just knew this was God's timing and that everything was going to fall into place. I went in for blood work 7 days after our IUI and the nurse called and said everything was beautiful and all my levels were high. I have never seen Bronson so excited. At this time he was interviewing with UPS and everything was on track for the job (another reason we thought everything was going to work) That next week we went in for blood work. I'll never forget it was a Friday morning. I had that day off from work but Bronson was filming that day. He brought me home and before he left he kissed me, rubbed my stomach, said a prayer for me and told me this was it. I waited all afternoon for my phone call. I was so excited. I was debating on how to tell Bronson. Do I wait til he gets home and share the great news or do I send him a text message that says "you are going to be a daddy...." i thought and thought until the phone call came. I was so anxious to hear the happy news. The phone call went a little like this..
Nurse: "Mrs. Sullivan"
Me: "Yes, this is she"
Nurse: pause..."I am sorry but the test was negative"
Me: crying "Thank you for calling" and I hung up the phone. I didn't even wait to hear what else she had to say.
Next I opened up my text messaging to send Bronson a message that said "negative". Before I could send it he called to tell me he was done filming and was on his way home. I couldn't even talk all I did was cry and he knew. He was crushed. Our happy Friday turned into one of the most tear filled days we have had in a while. We just didn't understand. Everything was falling into place. God was allowing things to happen. It has us so confused.
Bronson did not want to do another cycle of IUI. The last month cost us right about $1800 out of pocket and he wanted to wait. I asked if we could try just one last time and then I told him we could be done. We did another one and everything went even better this time. Bronson was offered the job, levels were high again and then.....negative. This month put us out over $2000 due to more test they had to run.
We talked to the doctor and he said our next option is IVF. He said he highly recommends it for us. Bronson looked at me and told me that we were not going to do anything until we are covered by his new insurance with UPS. They are supposed to have amazing benefits. We were unaware of the exact cost of IVF but knew that it was pricey. I jumped at the recommendation and said we would do it once we get the new insurance that was until we were given the price sheet.
The cheapest cycle for IVF is $12,000 and it goes up to $25,000. The first price is for one round of IVF and the last price is for 3 rounds of IVF. We were devastated when we heard the pricing. There is no way we can afford this. Right now everything is in Gods hands. We are through with tyring until we find out if we have insurance coverage for infertility or not and if we don't then we are going to pray for strength and ask God to get us through this time as we stop trying for the family we have desperately wanted to two years now.
God has given me a peace that could not have come at a better time. A peace that is ok with waiting because my body is so tired of being in pain and a peace that my husband and I won't be at the doctor every week and a peace that God has a plan. This peace does not take the tears away or the sadness away when I read on facebook that two more people are pregnant or that another unwed girl is pregnant but it gives me the peace to wait.
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